Dear lovely readers, my apologies for not posting in such a long time! Part of the reason is that so much of this blog has been about my change in career from Teacher of the Deaf/Hard of Hearing (TODHH) to sign language interpreter, and now I’m back, teaching the sweet kiddos. I felt that I had messages and nudges from the Goddess/ the universe/ the powers that be/ The Force, whatever you want to call it, to move in that direction, and now I’m back to what I was doing before? How do I explain that?
I’m still interpreting occasionally. I volunteer interpreted at a rally, and I still interpret at a local Springtime music / pagan festival. Two years ago in December, 2015, or maybe it was November, 2015, I got word from a fellow interpreter that a job as itinerant TODHH had opened up in her district, which was close to where I live now. I got the job and started in January of 2016. Oh, and I moved in with my sweetie sweetness, I’m not sure if said that in the last blog- I probably did.
I’ve been loving my job as itinerant teacher! It was a learning curve to adjust to that, since I used to be a classroom teacher. I used to stay in one or two schools, with a caseload of about 10 students. Now I travel from school to school (about 13-15 schools and about 24-30 students in my caseload). There’s fluctuation, students moving in or out of the district, graduating, or other TODHHs available, or not, to take on some of my students into their caseload. I teach Deaf/Hard of Hearing kids from preschool to 12th grade. For some kids, I help them develop vocabulary and language, or I help with literacy, or I help with self advocacy and care of their hearing equipment. I still use my sign language skills in my job with some of my students, and I love that.
I had not really worked with preschoolers before, and audiologists took care of the hearing equipment needs. Now I troubleshoot hearing aids, BAHAs (Bone conduction hearing aids), and cochlear implants. I don’t know enough to program them or anything, but I can clean them and change batteries and put them on kids, and though I knew some of that, I know a lot more now than I did before. Also managing the schedule and trying to see students in my caseload, and finding schools, kept my brain challenged and learning last year. Now I’m comfortable with it.
Wow, preschool. I am now comfortable with the wee little ones. I was so used to secondary students. I wasn’t sure what to do last year, and I grew into it, and figured it out. It’s pretty fun being a goofball with little ones and figuring out how to draw language out of them, so to speak, and then driving and meeting with an older student. I like the variety I get in my job, and the flexibility.
So, did I get ‘messages from beyond’ supporting my decision to go back to teaching? Not really- unless I wasn’t paying attention to them. It just seemed right and it’s been great so far. But what about those messages from beyond before, how do I justify going against what they supposedly said? I don’t know how to answer that. I can’t justify it. Lame, huh. I’m a lame pagan dork. And I’m also a fantastic pagan dork! Haha.
I’m still doing some pagan things. I joined a pagan chamber choir (I know right? Those exist? I thought all pagan music was heavy metal!) Joking on that last comment of course. I’m not as witchy-poo as I used to be; I’m not mixing herbs and doing spells and sitting at my altar like I used to. I have kind of fallen off the magic carpet I used to ride. What’s up with me? I have no idea. I still love the Earth and I love connecting with other pagans. But am I still pagan? Yeah…. I just ‘practice’ the pagan stuff less. I’m sure that’s why I didn’t get nudges about whether I moved in the right direction regarding my job- I didn’t ask. I just did.
My sweetie, who I think of as a gift from the divine and a somewhat subdued Pan in the flesh, and I will be getting married this summer. After just dating a few months, we felt like we’d known each other forever. Now, we’ve been together about 2 and a half years. He’s my gift, because of many reasons: all sexual needs fulfilled, intimacy needs as well, he’s my Obi Wan Kenobi when it comes to my little worries and shyness and how to relate with people and how to be free in life, he’s my guru, my friend, and he’s my lover. I am so blessed.
Anyway, I think I fell off of my overtly pagany ways, and so did this blog along with that. I am still pagan though! I am, I am, I swear. My brand of paganism is just less obvious than it was before… I am just me. I haven’t felt a draw to go to circles and drum or do rituals with others, in fact, I feel a bit of a resistance inside. I’m not sure why. I think I’ve seen the people behind the curtain and I’m a little disillusioned. That, and another group I know is wonderful is such a long car drive away. Also, I had some magic experiences and then fell flat on my face. After you do that, you might not want the magic experiences any more, or at least you might be hesitant about them.
I feel like my life is good right now. I’m happy. I’m free to be myself most of the time, and less shy to express myself the way I want to. I’m with someone who truly cares for me and supports me. I have sweet, sweet friends that like me the way I am. My job is pretty darned good. I have what I need in abundance. Thank you, God and Goddess, for providing. I am so grateful for this wonderful life.